It’s good to be back…

It really is.  I have lost so much time wallowing in laziness.  I have struggled with motivation for the last year it seems.  I work, I come home, I just want to sit here and forget about how much the day sucked.  Working at a computer all day sometimes drains the life out of a person, I don’t think we were meant to sit in office chairs all day staring at tiny pixels.  It just doesn’t feel healthy. 🙂

I rarely had energy, and just about any reason I could come up with seemed like a good enough reason to skip training…

“My stomach feels a little icky. ”

“I ate too much.”

“I didn’t eat enough.”

“I worked hard today and traffic sucked.”

“Is that staph or a freckle?”

“The lunar alignment is totally out of whack, I better start next week….”

I’m sure I’ve used most of those at any given time unfortunately.  But one day it just felt wrong, I suddenly felt lied to.  Lied to by myself, which is a weird feeling.   So I have cut the excuses…

My new Goal:  If something isn’t broken, falling off, or on backwards, I am going to train three times a week.

The last two weeks have consisted of two classes of jiu jitsu on Tuesday and Thursday and then Cardio/Weight Lifting on Saturdays.  I would like to train jiu jitsu all three of those eventually, and maybe fit the weight training in elsewhere. But at the moment it is the most feasible option, but I just do not feel that two times a week for jiu jitsu is even close to enough…so the next step is to raise the bar to three.

On another note:

Being back, I am a much happier person, it seems training really did bring balance to my life.  I found myself being so unhappy, unresponsive to friends, and a jerk sometimes when I wasn’t training.  I think BJJ  really does allow me some unexpected amount of therapeutic release. It is something indescribable, the difference I feel waking up after a night of hard training. Something indescribable, but great.

I think before now I had really been struggling to see or feel the things others were talking about…and although it is not that popular to say it seems…Jiu jitsu did not change my life.  I did not have any life altering epiphany when I found jiu jitsu.  There was no great revolution of the mind.

But it does balance me. It calms me.  It is the perfect drug. 🙂

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5 Responses to “It’s good to be back…”

  1. Yeah, consistency is definitely the key, with so many things. Writing a book, finishing your coursework, learning a language: as long as you do it every day/week, settling into a routine, you’ll keep progressing and eventually reach your end goal.

    Of course, with BJJ, there isn’t really an end goal, as you can always learn something new. 😉

    • jiujitsulife Says:

      Good points, and very true. Motivation is easily my biggest enemy. Thanks for even reading this nonsense! How come I never see you on the SD Grappling forum anymore?

      Hope all is well,
      Kyle

  2. You mean Sherdog? No notifications. That means I have to keep checking back to see if there are any replies, which gets annoying after a while, as opposed to an email dropping into my inbox telling me if I need to bother responding to something.

    Still, I head back occasionally to read what people are saying, as there are a lot of good posters on there.

  3. I randomly came to your site while looking up BJJ and Houston. It seems you haven’t updated in a while, but I hope you’re keeping up with your training. I would love to train with Draculino!

    • jiujitsulife Says:

      Hello PB. You’re right, I have not updated in a while. But your comment has prompted me to. Thanks for reading!

      Let me know if you are ever in the Clear Lake area, I will gladly take you to meet Draculino and make sure you get a free class.

      ~Kyle

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